Nobody's Princess

My SO is a full fledge narcissist ,how he LOVES that warm blanket of victim hood. One of the oddest things about this man is that he never seemed to acquire the ability to reflect upon his own life, to make connections between experiences had and lessons learned. He has no sense of shame either, I don't know if that is a symptom of a narcissistic mind or just a lack of upbringing, but it doesn't matter what he does, he believes it to be justified and in that belief, he has no shame. He has a sense of entitlement and has no regards for others feelings or wants. Empathy isn't in his vocabulary. Even when faced with the knowledge that his reactions are unjustified or uncalled for, he doesn't waiver.
He wants to be "revered" and "respected" and how dare you not whole heartily agree when he calls out yet another injustice that has been dished out on him by the world. Because most importantly, it is not his fault. We tiptoe around him, we agree without conviction and pretend interest in stories we've heard 20 times before. He is Savior to many and Protector of all, in fact he tries to save so many that he neglects us. I have learned to block out so much, I really don't know what I really feel anymore.
I know I once loved this man more than life itself and way to many times in the past I have wanted nothing more than to feel like I was the most important thing in his life. I don't know if he ever really loved me, I know he doesn't now and hasn't for a long time. He feels like I have the problem, maybe I do. I will always wonder why I'm not able to turn and walk away from him. Why I want him to love me so bad when it's so oblivious that he doesn't even like me. I'm tired of waiting for the other shoe to drop, with us it always does. There is no happily every after and I'm nobody's princess.