And Life Goes On....

I sit here today and know that right outside of my door, life goes on. For so many people, they get up and go about thier lives just like nothing has happened. I wonder how they can laugh and smile like nothing is wrong. Don't they know? Can't they see that my life has stopped? Do they see me at all? I don't think so.

I'm happy for all of those people that I see pass me by, but I am here. I am scared, I am hurting and I am dying inside. I am watching my life slip out of me with every breath that I take and still I do nothing. I sit.

I want to live a life like the others I see. One that has happy times, one with laughter and joy. I want people to see me, I want people to care. I want to get up and get going, but where would I go? I can't run far enough, I can't move fast enough to leave this life behind. I can't leave my son, he needs me. Oh, but I want to run.